We all have times when we know something is about to happen, or that things need to change or that we need to get into action around something; or even to stop doing something. But how often do we listen to that 'knowing'?
How often do we let our bodies and our hearts be our navigator in life?
I can easily say that the answer for me is 'not very often'. Yes, sometimes I am inspired, but for the most part, I get back into my head and the 'shitty committee' as my sister calls it, takes charge.
The new year is a time when many of us may pay closer attention to this 'knowing'. It is time for a fresh start. This year was no different for me, yet my 'knowing' was louder than it normally is.
In December I was shopping, having a great time with my family and then suddenly, my heart went up to 150 beats per minute; normal resting heart rate is around 60. I tried to ignore itinsist I was fine, but it was difficult since I was almost passing out. Paul, my dear husband, took me to the emergency room where they quickly took me in and began trying to shock my heart back to normal. They tried 3 times at 3 different levels, but it 'had a will of its own' and it resisted the treatment. So, they checked me in the cardio unit and gave me meds to get my heart back to working order. Finally, on Christmas Eve, I went back to the festivities and my family, but something was different. What happened hadn't sunk in yet. It was all very surreal.
Since then while my body has been recuperating, my spirit has been expanding. I know that this incident happened as a wake up call--how long was I going to continue giving lip service to what my heart knows is true for me? When am I going to connect my mind and heart and live my life from there? My coach and mentor told me it wasn't the heart that was shocked, it was more like my mind! That the 'shitty committee' was blown to bits!
I have been slow to 'get back into the swing of things' and I have been troubled about that. But, during the spirit expansion as I call it, I realized why. I don't want things to go back to normal. I don't want to get back 'up to speed'. I want to be present to what wants to happen now. Whatever that is. It doesn't mean that I don't want to make plans--(boy do I have plenty of those!! Just check out my Winter and Spring schedule at http://www.equinealchemy.com) But, I want to breathe and live in abundance trusting that I have everything I need and that those of you who want to join me on my journey will.
So, before you 'get back into the swing of things' or back 'up to speed', stop a moment and listen to your heart. What wants to happen for you? How can your honor yourself and therefore give more to those who love you? How can you live your life through a strong and unbreakable connection between your mind and your heart?
Good questions. Before you get into action for 2010, I highly recommend contemplating them as preparation for right action. Finding your own answers is spiritual alchemy.
With ease and grace,
Lisa
